Goodbye's

With people coming and going all the time it is hard not reflect on how your homecoming will be. I envision my kids at the airport and my husband and I cry. I miss them so much. Yesterday one of my best girl friends left and I had such a hard time seeing her off.

You go through so much here, all the unauthorized fireworks on the 4th here is just another reminder of how far we are from reality and the comforts of compassion, strong friendships and significant others. When we were sitting there crying she couldn't differentiate whether she was crying because she was happy or sad. That got me to thinking my new reality in the sun and sand gets so ingrained in me, will I be able to walk away without tears?

I have made some really good friends here, one's I feel I can talk to for hours, but the reality is that I am eventually going to have to say goodbye. I saw myself there last night and it was a little more then emotionally I was able to deal with. I saw it all in front of me, and I think that I too will be there and I may feel the tide of my life change and afraid of who I will be when I get home.

Goodbye's are wrought with fear, excitement, and the unknown. They are not final unless life has decided that your path has come to fruition and it is time for you to move on and in that case, say your goodbye's with infliction, with love and with hope. Tomorrow is yours make it what you deserve and leave the goodbyes in the past to make room for a thousand hellos.